Well another New Year and my drug and alcohol problem is no better than last year, but certainly has gotten worse. At least last year I found my car. This New Year I am still looking for it. No lie, I lost my freakin car. I know I have a drug and alcohol problem, but I just can’t get myself to do anything about it. Guess I am writing here for everyone else.

My girlfriend left me right after New Years because I embarassed her and the family. She has been telling me for years my problem with drugs and alcohol kept getting worse, but I just didn’t and couldn’t listen. Today I wish I did. I wish I never started that crap in the first place, but who knew. Today I would describe my drug and alcohol problem as hell on wheels. No matter how much I drink or no matter how much coke I smoke I continue to feel “shitty”. Maybe one day I will get some help with my drug and alcohol problem but until then if you are reading this maybe you will get some help too.